the up swing, manhood? and flagstaff.

So things are most definitely better.

I re-read some older posts in this blog, and feel a quick update, (if for nobody else but the future me), is necessary.  

Its been two relationships since annies, the hot and most definitely real canadian, and the cool, slightly sad navajo.    

the latter resulted in what im sure will be the darkest period of my youth.
                                                                                                                ... the scars prove.

but i ended that, moved out, moved her out, then in, then just moved......up to flag,
where i am now, sitting in the common room of the grand caynon international hostel.

the new season of arrested development just got put up.    on rachels account.

she, lena, and brendan and I drove up here together to see spafford- twas a great show.   and all ide like to say, write, and remember about that, is lena and I's love still exists.

which is something not to think about to deeply.

I swore myself to bachelor ism, even told the A-team to beat me out of any relationship,
                                  I do hope to get laid, but i imagine thats a bit tougher without a car, and in housing that forbids women and alchohol.                        

so really the conditions are prime.  for months of me time.   time to gather, observe, learn, and act,

all as true to myself as possible.....................fuck it,  this is me, if i dont like it, ill do what i do like.

and if you dont like it, well i guess you must not like me,   but at this stage, i kinda doubt it.

Im so very excited about this job (ace) , this housing ( 414 s san fran st. ), and this town, (the one with trains).      i dont know much about the actual day to day work.  but fid assures me that my co-interns are "my kind of people"    
I couldnt put it into words, but i think i know what he means.  
Oh and im going to quit smoking,  ACE doesnt allow smoking on project, which is 8 days long, so ill be nicotine free so very soon,   and then ill smoke for my 6 days off, then quit again.    I think itll be great for me.  
sigh
oh shit.....   is it time?      i feel that this post hasnt been as meaningful, deep, or depressing, as previous.

but hell, thats just not what my life is like right now, its stable, content, happy, and filled with shit i gotta get done.

tonite, ill wander, smoke the last of my buddies bud, hopefully socialize, and then finish arrested development.    which needs a short nickname......hmmm...

ar-dev........ rest ment......arrest loment......AD.......  

eh, thats a toughie, whatever,

G'nite